“A usually temporary condition in which a writer finds it impossible to proceed with the writing of a novel, play, or other work.”
The definition of “writer’s block” from Dictionary.com.
This is me…writing…sort of.
I haven’t done much of this in a long time. In fact, the last time I created and placed my thoughts in this space in blog form was on July 11. That’s a long time and I feel bad about it, both for those of you who used to come here often and for myself.
I’m a writer who doesn’t write lately and I’m struggling to figure out why.
I mean, there have been plenty of things to write about since July 11—tons of happiness, some sad events and lessons learned through living my life—but, for a variety of reasons, the writing hasn’t been flowing through me as it once did.
There have been countless times when something happened in my life since the last blog post where the thought passed through my head, “You know, that would make an excellent blog post.” I’ve even voiced that thought to Ang on numerous occasions and she would agree, prompting me to sit down and write it. Yet, each and every time, I would either sit down, trying to write it and the words wouldn’t come to me…or I just couldn’t find the motivation to even sit in the chair.
I don’t know why this happened, but it is/was the worst case of writer’s block I have ever gone through and, by no means, do I truly believe it is over just because I’m writing today. I’m trying to figure it out and, hopefully, today is a first step in doing so.
However, the fear in my lack of ability to write isn’t helped by the definition at the beginning of this rambling because my brain focuses on the part which says, “USUALLY temporary condition.”
How long is temporary? When the unusual happens and the condition is permanent, how have those now wordless writers coped with no longer writing? Is this going to happen to me? Am I over-thinking?
See how my brain works sometimes?
Recently, Ang and I started watching the show Californication and, yes, we realize that makes us that couple who is behind the times. We’re ok with it. The show’s main character, Hank Moody, who is played by David Duchovny, is an author who wrote a hit book, but has a severe case of writer’s block. It’s been years since he’s written anything for a variety of reasons.
Obviously, this story appealed to me and, in those moments during the show when Moody finds inspiration and sits down at his typewriter—yes, a typewriter—I feel tears welling up in my eyes. Whether it is a fictional character or not, it is always a joy to see a creative person creating in the way they do so best.
Seeing this inspired me to attempt to write again when I could find the moment and here I am. While this post may mostly be for me, rather than serving those of you who will read it, I have to take pride in the fact that, despite my difficulties in getting over writer’s block, today, December 10, 2014, I was able to get 555 words on a page. That’s 555 more than any day since July 11.
That’s progress, hopefully.